Episode Transcript
Speaker 1 00:00:07 Hello. And welcome back to another episode of the consciously thriving podcast. Is that annoying? That is that's really annoying. I would turn this podcast podcast. <laugh> I had somebody do that. That's funny. Um, hi everyone. How is everyone today? How is everyone going? This episode is going to be about NA a ticket away. Right? So today we're going to unpack the term spiritual awakening and what this has meant for the both of us. Right? Cause a lot of people, you know, some people even say on social media, like since you're awakening and like some people just probably like, what do they mean by that? Like to what level? Right? Yeah. Particularly when we say we're consciously choosing the whole podcast is called consciously thriving. Like what the fuck does that actually mean? Yeah. I'm not gonna lie though. Before we get into it, I do have to say like Nads and I have an issue where we will just talk and talk and talk and talk and talk and then film.
Speaker 1 00:01:01 And then we're like tired because we've just spoken so much. Yeah. So today we, she literally just came over now and we're like, we're not talking, we're not talking and we've chucked on the podcast, but I don't feel like we've really gotten to say hard of each other. Hello. <laugh> it's not affecting you. You're just normal about it. I'm fine, babe. What just happened to my voice? I don't know. You're upset about it. I'm upset. How do you feel? You're uncomfortable. You're uncomfortable that I wanna talk to you. <laugh> I can feel the energy right now. She, she tells me not to talk to her, but she does it on the podcast anyway. Yeah. That's it. Well, I, I just think like, we need a little, I love a birthday yesterday. You had a good day. Yeah. Oh, was she's birthday yesterday? It was, it was, I did have a good day.
Speaker 1 00:01:42 Nadia spoiled me the entire day. Not really. Yes you did. We went, we went bounce and yeah, cuz she was too scared to go to rollerblading, but we're gonna do that anyway. We're gonna do it anyway. No. Do you know what she, she said no, no. Do you know what she said? She's like, yeah, I'm gonna get the four wheel roller blades. I'm like, who are you? I didn't wanna injure myself. And then we went to bounce and there's like, these big, um, you know, is basically like a trampoline place. And there were only three year olds there. Three year olds. Let, let me just put that into first perspective. We went on like these like pillow things that you can jump off. Right. And that was scary. Shit. You were scared of the high. I was scared of landing wrong because I didn't trust myself.
Speaker 1 00:02:22 But if you saw the, you meant to land on like your butt, like your bottom or your back. And I all like every time I managed to land on my feet all forward. No, she, she and I kept manifesting it because I was like, I'm so scared right now. Like I'm not gonna be able to do it properly. And then as soon as I jumped, my body went into freeze and like flipped the other way. It's like, no, like she was like front diving into it and the guy was like, no, you have to land on your butt. Like, can I put this into perspective guides guys, six year olds, six year olds were doing it correctly and just flicking themselves off that thing. Nadia could not manage to land for land on her butt. It was just the funniest thing. And then she like, did it, she like was scared of the height.
Speaker 1 00:03:06 Like I've got I'm terrified of height. Like I crap my pants. I was scared of landing wrong. Oh my God. Anyway, so we, we were like chicken chickening out. She was scared of landing wrong. I was scared of the height. The guy was like, all right, get away. Like, he's like, fuck off. You guys are so annoying. So we ended up like guys three year olds there, like it was high. It was high anyway. So we ended up like leaving that place. And we're like jumping off, like the little platform thing, like little pictures that we are <laugh> and then I was staring at it and I was like, no, I can't live my life in fear. I need to conquer this fear. Say <laugh> I was thinking the same thing. And we're just like, let's get up and do it. Nah, we looked at each other and we're like, we're gonna fucking do it anyway.
Speaker 1 00:03:47 Yeah. So we have to do it. We're like still landed wrong. She landed absolutely wrong. She do. <laugh> she dove in and I just like, yeah, I was like, that was actually really strong. She watched me like all the way down, babe. I watched the whole thing and the guy was like, oh my God. <laugh> he told me like three times, like you really can't land like that. Cause you're gonna hurt something. I'm like, I'm trying. But the more you tell me that the more I manifesting landing wrong, she said that to him, she's like the more that you tell me that I can't land like that, she's like the more I'm gonna land like that <laugh> this is bad too good. But it was her birthday. We, she really spent the day manifesting. I did. So we like to spend birthdays doing the things that well, just being in the frequencies and vibrations that you wanna call in for the year ahead.
Speaker 1 00:04:28 So I started off with the call for multidimensional living, which is the program that I'm running, which is always such a vibe. And then we went to breakfast and we did some work there as well. And you know, the work that we do, we love. So yeah, that was such a pleasure. It was so good. And then we went to bounce and had some fun, went to bounce and had fun. And then we came home, did more work and just hang out with Pluto. Cooked me food. Yes. I made chips and an nice salad. Yeah. You talent for making salads guys. You don't understand. I wish I could give you the flavor over the podcast. Gosh, she's says erratic. It's stupidly good. Like my partner. And I always try to like, it's sad because Anthony who's my partner. Doesn't appreciate it. He really does. I feel like cuz he's had it for like 10 years, you know?
Speaker 1 00:05:10 No, he just doesn't care. He likes things. Non vinegar. Like he salads, like not to have a lot of flavor. What? He basically has no dress. That's disgusting. Yeah. It's just disgust like that like makes me consent. Yeah. That's like people. Oh my God. I used to serial killer sauce. I used to work with a that's serial killer shit. I used to work with a girl who was offended by sauce. Like she wouldn't have tomato sauce. She wouldn't have barbecue sauce. She wouldn't have mayonnaise. What? Yeah. Like bothered me particularly like you've seen Alfred, me and Daniel. I love source. I love sauce as well. She just doesn't do sauce. Like it personally offends her. She hates it. Fair enough. Yeah. No it is what it is. I mean, I like to be honest up until a year ago, maybe even six months taking me to a cafe to have a normal brunch, like mushrooms ABO on toast.
Speaker 1 00:06:03 Like, no that's true. She, you could even do that. Like she hated ABO I hated mushrooms. And you had mushrooms. Like there was a few breakfast things that I was like, yeah, it was really difficult to take me. I would just have toast and an egg. Oh my gosh. You want my little sister? That's what she does literally. But now I'm like LA the mushrooms, uh, avocado load up the mushrooms be gone full ham. I know. It's funny. How your chase buds change as well? Well, I force myself. I feel like it was just trauma from a kid. Yeah. I just didn't like it as a kid. And then I was just felt like I didn't have like it for the rest of my life. Do you know what I don't like though? Apple pie? My mom made it once when I had a virus.
Speaker 1 00:06:41 Oh yeah. I was like throwing up for like a week straight. And one of the nights of that, I was really sick. She made an apple pie and forever, since I cannot eat one, I can't hack it. I understand that. I extremely extremely dislike apple pies as well. Not because of trauma because they're gross. I don't get anyone who likes an apple pie. Not that bad. I mean, I can't have it cuz of that, but like I don't remember it being that bad. I think it's bad. <laugh> fair enough. Again. No judgment, no judgment, no judgy judge, but also judging the girl that doesn't like sauce. <laugh> no, she knows that I'm judging her for that. Yeah. Seriously. It's funny. All right. We're gonna get back to what we were talking about today. So we're actually gonna be talking about what the fuck is spirituality.
Speaker 1 00:07:25 When we're talking about awakening consciousness, all of the things. Now a lot of what I used to talk about on the podcast when the podcast was called, the closet soul was around spirituality and spiritual awakenings tapping into like higher consciousness and things like that. But I guess like at the start of the podcast, I don't know why these episodes actually deleted. Yeah. We don't know why it happened. The first three episodes that I ever filmed. So I thought that we would just do another, um, episode unpacking, unpacking that because I did speak about my spiritual awakening in that and how it all happened and something I often say online, it's like a little like marketing thing that I do where I'm like, I used to be an, a Fest and now I was a psychic psych. You know what I mean? Yeah, yeah, yeah. To draw people in.
Speaker 1 00:08:10 It's what you do. That's what you do. So that's the truth. Yeah. Well it really did happen. So it's a good little plug. Right. So we'll just discuss that. I think we've spoken about you recently, like your transition. Yeah. But like if we unpack it to like, you know what the hell is a spiritual awakening. Yeah. What it really means is having you going through this experience where you discover that there is life beyond this physical, 3d reality, which means there's actually more going on. Um, that's how I, I would describe like an awakening. Like, I don't know, like it's like kind of like an epiphany or an experience. Like some people see, um, spirits or some people have timeline shifts. Some people mine was very organic. Like Chile was like a whole bodily response when like you ate ham that time. Yeah. So that's a good description.
Speaker 1 00:09:01 What you said. Yeah. It's like an awakening to another world that exists right in front of us. But you just kind of, you don't have the awareness of that world and you really have to allow it to come in and maybe we can even give you some tips on how you can do that. But essentially it is a very organic thing. It's not something that can be convinced. It's not something where I could sit there and be like, you need it. Like, you know, it's not something I can tell you about. It's something that's experienced. Like I know when I was going through my awakening, I was very much alone at the beginning. Like Nadia was not going through her awakening. My partner, everyone around me basically had never experienced anything like what I was going through. And it actually feel, I feel like there are like stages just there is Rachel awakening there there's like the 3d, the 40 and the fived.
Speaker 1 00:09:48 And like you can oscillate between those stages. Yeah. But not the, I'm not talking about dimensions. I'm talking about like actual just stages of like <laugh> hold on. <laugh> well, let's back the fuck up. We're starting with what ISS awake it is. <laugh> we're very sarcastic with each other. So this is something we're it's fine. I know. Yeah. I just like it's so it's so true though. It is funny. Slow down. Yeah. Slow down. Hold your horses back up. We were spoken all day. We just like chop, honestly, this is how we are. No. So essentially like for me personally, like I said, I was a complete atheist prior to getting into this world, which meant like I never had any sort of like spiritual experiences. I probably had like two experiences when I was a quote unquote atheist. And I use that word because I was an atheist.
Speaker 1 00:10:37 Like she was a full on yeah. Really bad. Like she would fight with people on, I would fight with people on like <laugh> why did I do that? I, I was just so like, I hated cuz we went to a school that was like very Christian and Catholic and they were, was a uniting church school. So yeah. They were like, you weren't, it wasn't like mandatory to do so much of that. Like when you got to BCA, but like it was, we had to go 10 and go to like assembly in church, like basically church once we had to go to church once a week. Yeah. And I like the priest at school was like very, uh, what's the word? Uh, he wasn't accepting of other religion. Well, he was biased. Yeah. With what he had. I know, but like my mom was Muslim and he would like sit there and like, you know, reprimand Muslims in front of me.
Speaker 1 00:11:23 Oh really? Yeah. I hated it. And I was just like, you know what? You suck. Yeah. I didn't never remember that. Yeah. I was just, no, it was just like his comments would trigger me even more. And then seeing like, I, I don't know. I went to one of the events that was running. Yeah. You were got more involved than what I did. I was, yeah. You got more? Yeah. What? I remember, one time I got invited to an event and I wasn't allowed to go. My parents were like, that's a cult. You're not going. You're not going. Yeah. They actually, I was like really upset. Cause my friends were going and now look at the cult. You're <laugh> no, um, we always joke about it being cult. Like we'll have these moments where we look at each other, we're like, are we part of the cult?
Speaker 1 00:11:59 And we just dunno. I love spirituality. No, it's not. It's funny. Um, this was very much different. It, it was very cult-like in the way that it was done. And it was like, all of your friends were going to these events and they were talking about it and UN I thought it was a festival. Yeah. I actually did not know that it was like a church event thing. And then when I went there and kind of experienced what I experienced, basically they called me up and I had to like go on stage cuz all my friends were like pushing me to go on stage. And then they took us out the back and they're like, okay, now you've given your soul to Jesus. And I was just like, what the fuck is going on? Yeah. I was like, I did not give my soul to Jesus.
Speaker 1 00:12:37 Uh, my friend and I that went, we were just like, never again. We were like, that was fucked. Yeah. We literally left after that. We were scared. That's crazy. It was really, it was weird. Right. They were giving us all these rules on what we could do, what we couldn't do. It was fucked, babe. And yeah, that was like that all added to my hatred of religion and the things I experienced in my culture. Like I was Turkish. I grew up in a Muslim community, but I grouped that together. Like this was all community based, this wasn't religion based. Mm. Um, but I ended up like grouping, like the suppression towards women and the hierarchy and all of that. And I just hate like, I just didn't like, yeah. I put like religion to the side, put it all in one group. Spirituality did not let that in my life.
Speaker 1 00:13:17 I was like, no, this is a cult. I don't like this. Blah, blah, blah. Just sit there now. Obviously I don't think like that. Yeah. I take like things from different religions. I love learning. I love, yeah. I love learning about the different religions. Absolutely. Absolutely. Always talk to Jesus. Like I've not, it's not like that. You know what I mean? But it's just really funny to when I look at like actual religion as like an institution, I, I still don't agree with like the way that it's run, but that's like my personal opinion. So that's fine. Right. Yeah. Anyway, I just wanted to give you the background of why I went to atheism and I was an active atheist online, like fighting people because I'm like, they're putting their views on me. I'm gonna put my views on them. Like I was like, you can't like, you know, so very much of a rebel trialed. I will say anyone, tell me I can't do anything. I'm like, I'm gonna do it legit. You were the opposite, right? Nah, I was pretty against it. But you weren't like a rebel? Not like you, babe. Yeah. Like you were like, you made it out of your way. I went outta my way. Yeah. Yeah. So basically, yeah, you just didn't grow up in a religious household really? Right. Finish yours part. Okay. Yeah. And then I'll share mine. Why not? True.
Speaker 1 00:14:27 True. Organized. Okay. No. So, um, I've grown. Uh, I grew up Catholic, I would say. Um, but never like my, my grandparents, my Nona nor nor, um, went to church every week. And I went with my family on Christmas and Easter. Mm. Um, you know, doing the right thing by my grandparents, but it was never forced in my family or anything like that. And even as I got older, we like didn't go to church as much and things like that. Um, yeah. And then as, as I got older, what I didn't like was like, you grew up in here about like, um, the institution and the, the wrong things that go on and blah, blah, blah, all the, that sort of stuff. But it was just one of those situations. Yeah. Wasn't a big thing in my family. Like, we'd go Christmas, Easter show our respects.
Speaker 1 00:15:14 Mm-hmm <affirmative>. And that was that as I got older, I got a little bit more frustrated with the institution and I was like, I don't really wanna go like stop making so much of an effort. Like my parents might go. Or my, one of my, one of my sisters is, um, loves going to church <laugh>, which is beautiful. Yeah. Um, you know, now that I've like had a spiritual awakening, I'm like, you know what? It is kind of nice to have that level of faith, but yeah, never against it, but I just was kind of neutral. But then as I got older became a little bit more against the stuff that I heard and then I kind of LA that up with religion and the institution. Yeah. You know, we do tend to group things as humans. It's just easier in our mind to think about it, like in a group.
Speaker 1 00:15:50 And it's like, not, I don't like that. And I like that. Right. Yeah. See, we make biased opinions, but you know, I look back and go, well, I was not self-aware as well. Yeah, exactly. Right. So interesting to think about like different experiences with religion. I was always able to believe whatever I wanted. Hence no one could tell me what to do. Yeah. My parents were really good with that too. Yeah. Yeah. Never, never was forced for anything. So it was going through your parents are good like that. Yeah, they definitely are. So essentially what happened to me was I ended up getting really bad mental health. What that wasn't English. I ended up getting, um, I was really bad mental health wise. So I ended up developing really bad depression. And I started to develop anxiety attacks as well. Panic attacks. And this went on for about a whole year.
Speaker 1 00:16:39 Like this probably 2019 was a year where my life blew up. Yeah. Like I lost my biological father and then my family like had this like breakup and that was separated. Yeah. Separated. And that was also like losing family, losing another father figure, uh, dealing with like everyone, everyone was like coming to me in that moment of like, you kind of just had to take on a hell heap of responsibility that year, all at once. And like, while also grieving the loss of your dad and then yeah. And then also graduating from a course that I hated. Yeah. So she was in a course that she didn't hate, I guess it's like a, a triple, like a domino effect. Well, these things happen. Yeah. It was definitely a domino effect. And it was just, yeah, it was in the last year of uni. It was the worst time of my life I could say.
Speaker 1 00:17:21 But also the best time of my life now that I look back because it taught me so much and it led to this path. So everything does happen for a reason. Essentially that ended up happening. I was living with my mom at the time. We have a good relationship now cause we've done a lot of healing. But at the time we had a lot of like polarizing opinions. We could not see eye to eye. We were constantly fighting. So I ended up like taking my animals and I ended up moving in with my, my partner, which was like such a blessing. And we moved in together at the start of COVID. So this is before any like, so this is 2020. So this is before anything had ever really happened. Um, does that make sense? Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah. Am I making sense before the, the world before?
Speaker 1 00:18:07 Yeah. Yeah. So it was like, the day that we moved in was the day that we went into lockdown for the first time ever. Mm. Yeah. So we were terrified. I'll tell you that much. Yeah. It felt like the world was ending. Yeah. But essentially that's what happened. I moved out. I sudden, suddenly I was given the opportunity to spend all this time with myself. Right. Work was taken away. I couldn't go out with friends. I couldn't distract myself at the time I was parting a lot. Um, I was just drowning my sorrows in all the things. Right. Mm-hmm <affirmative> so I was trying to avoid my actual feelings as I always did. I was never like, we aren't really taught emotional intelligence. Right? No. So we like, it's what you do, it's you distract yourself. But I got to this point during COVID where I was like, I don't have anything else to fucking watch.
Speaker 1 00:18:50 I've watched all the things I've, you know, consumed all the social media and it just got to this point, like I cooked, I did all the things that you did and then dream lockdown. Yeah. And then I was like, I don't know, like cooked new meals and things like that. Tried new recipes, spring cleaning. And then I got to this point where I was like, I have no choice, but to deal with myself, like I'm trying so hard to escape my mind and escape these thoughts and escape, this anxiety. When in like reality, it was just getting worse and worse and worse. And I remember I tried therapy during that time as well. And that didn't work either for me personally. And I was just like, I have no other choice, but to just like meditate. So when I was with my mom, I had started meditating but off and on.
Speaker 1 00:19:32 So I was like going five minutes, maybe three minutes. And I wasn't really committing to it cuz the anxiety was so profound. Mm. Lockdown was when I started to really commit to it. So then I started to force myself to sit there, like I have a really intense energy. So I was like, you're fucking sitting there with all the anxiety and like, you're gonna just speak with it and you're gonna do this meditation thing. So I started to meditate morning and night. Then I started to become obsessed with it because then I finally got that like sense of like peace mm. And clarity. I was looking for, like, I just wanted that like calm feeling. Cause I hadn't felt it in over a year. Yeah. I've never felt anything like that in my life to be honest. So I was like, this is so profound.
Speaker 1 00:20:09 So I started to meditate literally morning lunchtime, early afternoon, late afternoon. And then right before bed. And then I was doing breath work as well, which was really helping to activate that parasympathetic nervous system. So I was really, really, really throwing myself into meditation and I was beginning to love it because I was, I was finally getting that, that piece right. That I was looking for. And I was beginning to understand my mind in a whole new way. Now this was all very physical. So nothing spiritual was happening other than calming my mind and getting to know, know myself on a deeper level. Now the day that my spiritual awakening. So as Nadia described, actually awakening to a different world, came online for me was just after meditating. One day I ended up going to the fridge to go eat some ham, which I usually like to do for a little bit of a snacky snack.
Speaker 1 00:21:07 <laugh> it's just ham. I know. I know. So I was eating some ham and then all of a sudden I put the ham in my mouth and then I could feel the essence of the pig. I could fill the pigs soul. I could feel the pigs sadness and I could feel like the anxiety, the worry. And I wasn't getting like good meat. You know what I mean? Mm-hmm <affirmative> I was just getting it from the supermarket. So I wasn't conscious on that either. I was just getting whatever was cheap and I cannot tell you that feeling was so overwhelming. I could not like it made me wanna throw up. I spa the ham out. And that moment was when I was like, what the fuck was that? Mm. I was like, this is not normal. I've never experienced anything like that. That was when I would say my third eye, which is like a sharper point.
Speaker 1 00:21:59 Uh that's like our intuitive muscle kind of opened. Yeah. And that's when I started to experience energy on a whole new level. And from there, my spiritual awakening was very much, I guess, all over the shop is a good way to describe it. Like I was, it was all over the shop. Like I cannot tell you how insane it was in terms of like things coming online and then just like getting taken to past lives. My soul, literally leaving my body at one point, like having looser dreams as actual traveling, I can't tell you it was insane. And it just, it kept going and going and going and I couldn't ignore it. That was when I like went into actually studying, you know, how do I actually use these abilities? Cause then I started to have like psychic PREMs and I was like, what the fuck is happening?
Speaker 1 00:22:50 So then I went into a program and learned how to use it. And that's when I ended up like becoming a psychic and starting that online business that I did start. Wow, there you go. That's my journey with energy. Like it was very much an awakening to a whole new level, but the stages are really funny. So it's like, what the fuck is going on? Then? It's like, I I'm going crazy. Like I was convinced. Yeah, you were crying to me. Yeah. You were. I remember you came to my house and you were crying. Cause you're like, I don't know what's happening. Oh my gosh. I do remember that. Yeah. I thought I was gonna lose everyone cuz I thought like, I'm like, I'm so different now. Yeah. Like I'm like, I don't even know who I am. Yeah. No poor thing. Um, like she came over and I think she wanted to start going up online and start doing this and stuff like that.
Speaker 1 00:23:32 And you were just crying cause you were I'm like it's okay babe. Like it's okay. I understand though. Like now having gone through my awakening to the level I have, I'm like shit, babe. How did you do it? How did you do it alone? I was so scared to tell, tell you particularly that's probably why I was crying because I remember that time you told me not to do it. Remember like four years ago? Yeah. Four years ago. Yeah. When I said that, that's what I wanted to do. And then I had given into fear and I stopped doing it. And then I was like to Nadia, I'm actually just gonna go to university or something like that because I was like, I, you know, this isn't for me. I was like, I think you wanna do a makeup page or whatever. I had done all that.
Speaker 1 00:24:08 And I tried to do like the videos online and then I decided no, cuz fear got the better of me. And then I was like, nah, you know, I convinced myself that that's not what I really wanted. And then she's like, yeah. She's like, honestly, like I didn't take you to be that type of person. Like I always thought that you'd be much more than that. Like feeling that. Yeah. That's something like, I think we were even, even younger than that. Maybe like 20. Yeah. We were really young. 26 now. Yeah. What a judgemental cow. No, not at all. And I just like, no. So yeah. You can understand why that fear is there. Yeah. And that's why I cried with you because I was like, oh my God, N's gonna judge me so fucking hard. And how was my reaction? I can't remember. Oh, you were really loving.
Speaker 1 00:24:44 You were really supportive. I remember Nadia when she was like, she was not having a spiritual awakening and I'm sitting there telling her about aliens. Yeah. I'm like, babe, I am seeing aliens. I'm like, what the fuck is going on? You know why? Cause I knew you were never a lot. Like I, like I knew she like to work or I knew you and I trusted you. Yeah. I knew you. Like, why would you just, why would I just say that? I was like that like I, yeah. It's like, yeah, the relationship and the foundation we had built already before, just also just like, well this is, this is what she's going through. Absolutely. But like I was also like, I wanna do that. <laugh> I wasn't, I wasn't very judgemental. I was just like, I wanna do that. Yeah. And I was like struggling to understand at a bit at the start.
Speaker 1 00:25:27 It's a quality I like about you. You're very open because I don't know if I hadn't had my spiritual awakening and if roles were reversed. Yeah. I think I would've looked at you. Like you were crazy. It happened the way it was too. For sure. Yeah. Yeah. Because she's a bit more open. Whereas me, I was very like, like really hung up on my opinion and only my opinion. Yeah. So if nobody like saw my opinion, I would be like, well you're wrong. I might. Yeah. <laugh> yeah, definitely. Now you look back and you're just like, yeah. It makes it sense for a reason why roles were reversed first. Yeah. So she, she like was very open and very understanding, but I couldn't like, I still couldn't talk to you about it to the level that can talk about it now. Of course it's hard.
Speaker 1 00:26:07 Like even, um, yesterday my partner came home after listening to a spiritual podcast and everything he was talking about. I'm like, babe, I've been trying to talk about this video. <laugh> oh my God. It's not like the it's so funny. It's so funny. It's so funny. You did that to me actually at the start of it thing. I just be like, this is what I'm talking. It is. And I, when, when I said that, I was like, babe, I fully get it. Like hearing it from like, sometimes it takes that person to click cuz you're too close to the person that you're like to listen to them. Yeah. Like to understand like, you know what I mean? Yeah. Um, now, no now, like I wouldn't feel like that if Anthony came and said I have this or you came and I had that or like I experienced this.
Speaker 1 00:26:45 No, but like when you are not familiar, you can't understand it. It takes a random person or listening to someone else to explain it in a way that needs to get explained. Yeah, absolutely. Yeah. I think it's true when things are too close and you have such an emotional attachment, you're just like naturally programmed to ignore the person. Like my partner just does not listen to me because he like refuses. But I also don't listen to him. We actually laughed the other day we noticed about ourself. This is total side note, but it's funny. Like we notice that we don't even disagree with each other, but we'll like, jokingly just go. No, like, like if somebody, if he says something, I'll be like, no, you're wrong. Like just to like, like even if I don't. Yeah. Even if I don't actually disagree with him, I'll still say you are wrong.
Speaker 1 00:27:27 And that do the same with me. Yeah. I do that with Anthony too, actually. Yeah. It's just automatically you go on the defensive and you're like, no, yeah, fuck up. <laugh> yeah. Legit. Um, yeah, so that was my experience. So it was very much just waking up to another dimension and since then the experiences grow and grow and grow and I control them a bit more. I mean like, this is what I teach the girls to do in multidimensional living like just really activating that muscle and something that what happens and what I saw with the girls as well is once you set the intention to actually activate that world, like to connect to that world, then you do yeah. You end up connecting to that world. Like a big thing is we're actually programmed to like the reason why there are some people that experience it and there are some people that don't experience it is based off of subconscious programming.
Speaker 1 00:28:17 Yeah. So if we go back to childhood, that is when we're most influenced. Think about all the movies that we saw ghosts. Right. Being scared of spirit. Yeah. And the spiritual realm and death being scary. And like, you know, we're not, we're not taught about spirit, the spiritual realm. Right. We're, we're taught to kind of fear it or for it to be like fantasy. Not real. Yeah. Yeah. So there's a lot of like paranormal scarcity going on, um, like things that are being programmed into us. So naturally we fear that world and we shut it out, growing up. Now, something that was really, really, really important for me to do at the start of my awakening was when I started to realize that I was having a spiritual awakening, cuz I went online and I was like, what the fuck is happening to me? And then I saw other people were having like these spiritual awakenings and I was like, whoa, whole new world.
Speaker 1 00:29:07 So something that I realized that I had to do was throughout the day I had to actually say multiple times, I allow, I allow my spirit guides to come in and help me. I allow this world. Yeah. And I had to say constantly in the reason why is because the subconscious mind is known as the habitual mind. So what that means is you will unconsciously fall back into patterns. And this is why Nadia and I always talk about self-development being the most important, not self-development, self-awareness being one of the most important things on your journey of like actually, you know, connecting back to yourself and changing your life because you need to be able to catch yourself on these habits. Now I'm not gonna go back into reprogramming talk because we've done the last episodes like that. But this is just really important to note because that's what ends up happening.
Speaker 1 00:29:55 And this is why people's spiritual awakenings or whatever kind of stunt at a certain point. It's because they don't know that they are going back into subconscious habits. Yeah. And feelings where they're actually rejecting that world because it's, it's what they were taught. I've done it. Yeah, absolutely. You block it off. Right. So I did it to myself as well. And I also had to deal with like the scary, like those scary thoughts about spirits like hurting you and blah, blah, blah. The thing is about this plane is you have complete free will. Nothing can fuck with you and negative low vibrational entities. Yes. They exist. But guess what? They're an aspect of you. Yeah. Right? Yeah. And that's what some people like, that's what we have to recognize. We all have light. We all have darkness. Yeah. And it's not about being fearful of the dark stuff.
Speaker 1 00:30:38 Cuz I think that's a lot of like what like keeps people from wanting to explore this world. All you've gotta do is just send it, love, not send it away. I feel like that's another really important thing. You're yeah. Send it love because you are a universal laws gal, right? Mm-hmm <affirmative> if you send something away with like, if you send it away and you're like, fuck off, you're not allowed to be in my space. Get out of here. Mm. Which is what I used to do. Yeah. And it like they have to leave or the entity or the energy has to leave. It's not allowed to be in your space. You are actually just sending that back out into the universe. Yeah. You are. Absolutely. And I think this one applies a lot to the universal law of the law of one, like, like you said, it is a part of you, like, you know what I mean?
Speaker 1 00:31:24 There's an, like, it's, there's a part of your soul that, you know, like it's tied to. So just not being fearful of that realm is really, really important because understanding we're all connected. Absolutely. Yeah. But yeah, you do manifest more of that and you can manifest more experiences of that cuz you'll be vibrating of a, at a frequency of fear. And when that happens and you're just gonna keep seeing more of that. Oh my God. It's reminding me of my first like encounter with a low vibrational entity. I was, which was only aspects of my own soul. So you find this deeper and deeper, like she said, the law of one, everything is us. Right. So this was like something I recognized at the start of my awakening. Basically. I was like laying there. And this is when I started to first like really connect to the spiritual realm and I'm like connecting and then this like big black dark Demonn looking thing.
Speaker 1 00:32:16 Wow. Comes up over top of me. And it's like, like it's something you see out of like the movies. Right. And it was like a hovering over my body and I shit, my pants. Wow. I ran into my room. Yep. And I was like, that's fucked. That's fucked. And I was like, oh my God, what am I gonna do? I can't meditate anymore. Like I started to freak out and then I just had this moment with myself the next day. And I was like, nah, you're gonna fucking force yourself to go there. There I'm like, you're gonna meditate in the dark. I'm like, this is your mind. So then I like, I did exactly that. And I forced myself to be there. The entity came back and then I just looked at it and allowed it to be there. And it literally dissipated like yeah, yeah.
Speaker 1 00:32:52 Disintegrated. So yeah, literally. And there's like it, you can have an awakening without like seeing spirits. Exactly. There's like timeline shifts. Like that's something that I experienced as well recently where this was so fucked. Like this was just like, I, my partner still laughs at me cause like, it didn't happen. I'm like it did, it did like I felt set. Right. So I got my phone in the, um, I think it was the morning I had think I had, I was still in my corporate job and I had to go into the office and I looked at my phone. It was completely dead. I know for a fact I didn't charge it that night because I was doing affirmations and fell asleep. Right. Mm-hmm <affirmative> anyway. So plugged my, um, phone into the charger and like set my alarm for about 15 minutes. Right. No phone can charge in 15 minutes.
Speaker 1 00:33:35 Right. So my alarm went off and I was like, okay, I'll go have a shower, blah blah. Looked at my phone. Full battery. Yeah. That's nuts. Right. And in my head is all I kept thinking was I need my phone to be charged. I needed my phone to be charged. Just like I needed it. Like I was angry at myself cuz I didn't charge it. Yeah. And I was like, what the fuck? But it's like, not even a like, oh that's weird. It, it like actually feels different. Like what the did I just like experience like, no, I like that. I I've had that. Like can't like explain it, know what it is. I just experience I, and you know, for a fact I'm like, I just, it was flat battery F 15 minutes ago. And then I was like, is my, um, like phone stuffing up? Maybe like it's not charging properly. Completely fine. Throughout the whole day drained battery. Like how it usually does, like after 48 hours or whatever mm-hmm <affirmative>. And after a day or two depends how much I'm on it. Um, but it was like, I was just like, what the hell? I was like, I think that was a timeline shift. That's the timeline shift? What you described? Like the frequency shift. Yeah. I felt them before. I've actually like, I feel them viscerally. Did you feel like the actual world like move?
Speaker 1 00:34:39 Nah, it, I can't. I think I was just so overwhelmed that I can't even remember, um, what you felt. I felt different. I felt like even like the, the light was different in the room. Yeah. Yeah. Like, cuz I had like the, the sun was beaming in. I did feel like that was a bit different, but it's an unusual feeling. It is. Yeah. The way, but not like a shift in my body, but I guess like we are just looking at a phone, you know? I don't know. Well, I, I experience it very viscerally. Like when I get timeline shifts, like if I've been manifesting, I will actually like, it's like the, it's like the little mini earthquake and then I like kind of like stabilize, like I'm not kidding guys. This is literally what it feels like. And then like a download would come in, like just click Coon.
Speaker 1 00:35:20 So like this is their ability just to know and download information and the message will come in. You've just like shifted into timelines and I'm like, okay, I've shifted this to the timeline. And it feels different. The light's different. It feels like vibrationally different it's nuts. Right. You really, really feel it the most like intense one I've ever had was when I was going to get coffee at my favorite coffee place that I'm like manifesting, trying to live there. Ah, yeah, yeah, yeah. This is, yeah. I love it. It's like the trees. I love it. So I was walking back to my car and then I have this complete like body shift again, the world like shakes a bit and then it's all happening, very fast. The world shakes a bit and then my car's missing. It's not in front of me. I remember very clearly.
Speaker 1 00:36:04 And then I look up and it was the, it was like, your house is up there. Walk like you, you, you walk to go get coffee. And I was like, what the fuck? And then I came back and then my car was there. It was crazy. Yeah. So you can't like, how do you, you know, like people always say like, how do I have a spiritual awakening? And it's just so organic, isn't it just, it's organic. It's rallying up. You can't force that you can't force it. And I think like it's everything's intention. Like, so when I started to get into the world of spirituality, I, I know how important like being open to this stuff was so if you are like sitting there like, oh, well how do I have these experiences set the intention? So I started being like, you know, I got into personal development.
Speaker 1 00:36:45 Then I started saying, well, you know, I really wanna delve deep into the spiritual side. And then all of a sudden videos started popping up on my YouTube, like, you know, recommended videos. Um, without me even searching conversations would happen. Um, I would start to get like 11, 11 right now. Cute. <laugh> um, it would start to get like, like experiences with that timeline shift. And like, I was so much more open that and I've still got a lot of more room to be open to this sort of stuff. I definitely know. There's a bit of, um, there's bit of work to do there and that, that realm going like deep to the level that you have, cuz I realize there is a bit of fear still to work through. Yeah. Um, I just think like you you're given what you can handle at this moment, right?
Speaker 1 00:37:25 Yeah. And what you need. Yeah. You know, like while those experiences are very good and very fun and like, it's like, oh my God, this is like a whole new world. And I've had like cool stories to tell and cool experiences. Honestly. Like my whole journey has been coming back here. Yeah. Like I spent a lot of time up there. Yeah. And yeah you did and not on earth. Right. Because I was like, it's so much fun. Yeah. Up there. I, I wanna go back up. I don't wanna be here. Right. Fair enough. So I had to really like transition back to earth and I'm like, okay. So what the fuck is the point of me even waking up to all of this and experiencing this. And I feel like it's still coming together, but I have to, you have to learn how to be a human and be here and experience it.
Speaker 1 00:38:04 Well, you, you gotta remember your soul came here to have the human experience. Right. Um, so you don't wanna, I remember for a fact, I remember she got really caught up in that world and like, it, it became hard for you to go out in public. You didn't wanna see anyone you just wanted, you know, even going to the shops made you feel very overwhelmed. And it happened to me too. Yeah. It really did like seeing people that, you know, like you can't explain your experience, you see the world in a completely different light, but you are having a human, um, experience. And that's what your soul chosen. You just have to remember, like these experiences are beautiful and it's, it's beautiful to know these things, but um, it doesn't take away from the beautiful things that you can manifest the like, you know, some people go to the extent of not wanting to, to even have physical objects around them or be around physical yeah.
Speaker 1 00:38:50 Elements, which is just, which is obviously, that's fine. If that works for them, like you have monks that that lifestyle suits them so well, but like don't deprive yourself of what your soul wants. I know for a fact that there's a lot of things that I wanna experience in the physical world. We know babe. Yeah. We jet she's gonna be L as like, we, we, we to clean zone at the side of the yard, we ended up like staying in this like lamping place, this like, um, but you didn't have any, it was very much not lamping. It was like fancy camping. Yeah. So they had like no PowerPoints or anything like that, like a communal bathroom and all of that. I'm great. Like I was, I was in my element, so good. Nadia was like the bug. I don't think so bad. The bug was fucked.
Speaker 1 00:39:32 Yeah. We saw a bug and we had to get that rain at a out. It was, it was a cricket <laugh> she was an old lady. The owner was an old lady. Like let's give context. We were screaming. The, the cricket was on NAIA. Sean <laugh> we were doing a breathwork in the tent and then we'd look up. And this cricket is just like bump around the entire tent. We was shit scared. It was pitch black, scary. It was so many bugs bugs. I don't do. But she comes in and we're like, we need help. We need help. We're describing this like massive monster type creature. We're like, we don't know what it is. We didn't know it was a cricket at this point. Yeah. So she comes in, she steps in, she literally scoops it up into a container and she's like, guys, it's a cricket. Like, so most it's gonna do is like put you to sleep with its songs. And I was like, that's crazy. You're crazy. You did not see this thing beforehand. <laugh> but anyway, besides the cricket, she was funny. She was the biggest princess. She was like with her straighter. I remember the scene, like, so clearly she had a straightener in her hand, she had the PowerPoint in her other hand, like the plug and she's like, there's no PowerPoint.
Speaker 1 00:40:35 I was like, you a bit of a princess. Aren't like your hair's a Buffy. And you go to Queensland. They tried that season. Yeah. That was a problem. But not even tying it up. Helped babe. Yeah, it was. So it was, it was hilarious. I never knew that she was like that. Yeah. But I loved it. You know, the whole point is like, I love being, you know, she loves her fancy things I'm so yeah. I like the physical stuff. No, but I like that you mentioned that because you are right. There are people that choose to completely get rid of pH and I think it can teach you a lot. I can however, minimalistic minimalism. Yeah. And not like relying on like the material abundance. However, I agree as well. I think we are here for the human experience and to have the human experience and I guess like, whatever way that works for you.
Speaker 1 00:41:18 Yeah. And don't, it's just about not letting the physical stuff control you, like having your, like putting your worth on those sort of things. Like absolutely. I'm quite wise when it comes to those things. Like, I'm so grateful for all the beautiful things I have in my life. And I'm, I'm grateful for everything I have have. Um, exactly. And it just doesn't define my worth at all. Yeah, exactly. Right. But yeah, it's all about coming back here. So the spiritual stuff is awesome. I think like the, what was clear to me it's that this knowledge is presented to us. The reason why we have these awakenings is so that we wake up to our infinity, right. To our ability to fucking manifest everything that we want so that we awaken to the fact that we are here to heal things like ancestral trauma and experience emotion on every scale, like absolutely.
Speaker 1 00:42:07 And just to live life and have fun like this isn't, you're not here to be punished the universe doesn't wanna punish you. And that's like having this, awakening's just real, like through your perspective and through these universal laws and you know, all these beautiful things, you don't have to experience life as this, you know, you, you live and die. Like, that's it like, you know, the world's ending. Like you get to create your reality on this earth. And that's, what's truly amazing about these experiences more than anything. Yeah. It truly is an energetic playground. Like you just, that that's like the biggest liberating thing about waking up to this knowledge. And like, when you look into things like astrology, human design, Jean keys, you like, you just get to learn about yourself. You get to learn about your soul, where your soul has been, what your souls like codes are in this life.
Speaker 1 00:42:53 And it's just all to help you be here. Yeah. Yeah, absolutely. Yeah. It's just more than anything it's helped us just be happier. Absolutely. Yeah. I think so. But that's a spiritual awakening. Yeah. I'm like, it's just waking up to knowledge that there's more than that meets this physical eye. Yeah. It's not just that we live and we die. It's that energy is constant. It cannot be created. It cannot be destroyed, but it's forever transformed. We are energy. So therefore like, you know, death does not exist. Yeah. You know, we get to transition. Yeah. And I think like, as we evolve with the podcast, we'll niche down the, the spirituality side too. Like we'll go into the different elements of different things around spirituality too, which will be super helpful along all the journeys. Yeah. Yeah. I know I'm going back to this point, but I was actually wanting to ask you this before and I completely forgot you.
Speaker 1 00:43:46 Have you, did you have like a proper moment where you're like more, there's something more out there just came through. Yeah. So obviously that our situation I've spoken about before, like that was, was that your moment? That was my moment of going. Oh fuck. Yeah. Okay. Because I asked to see an owl mm-hmm <affirmative> if this was real mm-hmm <affirmative> and then it came into my reality the next day, but like, I love how the university didn't even give it on the TV or anything. They just did it in a way that like, it came to my partner's backyard. It was like a live owl there. I just love how they did that because I'm like, they just knew I was gonna be skeptic. Yeah. If I saw it on the TV, like, oh, that was just coincidence. Yeah. And that was my moment, like, oh my God.
Speaker 1 00:44:30 And I just feel how truly, how, like my spiritual side has come through is through manifestation more than anything, like setting intentions then coming to reality, setting intentions, coming to my reality, my house, like manifesting, like everything I had written down and that coming to my fruition, I was like, oh no shit. There's something out there. And then just slowly, slowly realizing that yeah. Like everything is energy. Another really profound time that happened for me was when I was doing a breath work. And I felt the energy in my body. Like, I actually felt that. And I Googled like what that meant, because it felt like my, sorry <laugh> it felt like my hairs was sticking up and that just like someone was like slightly touching my body like that. I know the feeling. Yeah. Yeah. Um, and like, yeah, just movement in my body.
Speaker 1 00:45:17 I was like, oh, what is that like? Right. Cause you're so still in breath work. And then meditation, this was the first time I started combining the two mm-hmm <affirmative>. And then when I researched, I feel like energy's moving throughout the body. I'm like, oh, that's energy. Yeah. That's energy. So it's just like slowly, slowly, like it wasn't as like, oh my God. I've had spirits come up to me and blah, blah, blah. Like definitely going down that route. But like yeah. Through manifestation and feeling energy and like yeah. Basically everything energy. That's how I got to realizing. Yeah. Interesting. Okay. So mine was very much like it waking up to the energetic world. And then I started to play around with the manifesting and I asked for my full life Clover. But using that example, if you really wanna start connecting to your spiritual side, that could be something that you try just asking for a sign, say, okay, give me a sign that this is real.
Speaker 1 00:46:05 And I'll continue to like explore it or I'll look into it a bit more. Right. You can just be like, I want this as a sign. And even having like a sign that you asked the universe for when you need it is really, really profound. Yeah. Because it helps you on your journey. Right. You're just like, okay, I'm supported. I'm supported. I'm guided. I'm guided last night. Um, my partner's like, okay, I'm gonna ask for a sign. He's he chose an Eagle within an hour. We watched a YouTube video. It was manifestation, babe. An Eagle was on there. I was, what does he do? What you do when you start sign your sign? No, ah, he didn't say it was coincidence, but you're not convinced. Oh, he wants a sign, your sign. He wants to sign your sign. So he's like I wanted in person.
Speaker 1 00:46:43 I was like, you're controlling the how. Yeah. Yeah. I've told him. Yeah. Yeah. He'll learn. I learn. Really he'll learn. He's got me. He's fine. But I was just like, oh my God. It's just reminded me of like how I was like, yeah. You're like, nah, give me a bit of a more, more of a sign. Yeah. Doesn't work for me when I do that. When I say I wanna sign your sign. No. Now they're just like, shut up. No, I don't even need a sign. Sometimes. I'm like the, the feeling I have in my body isn't enough is already. So that's what I mean, like the level you don't realize how spiritual you get until you look back, you're like, oh my God, I didn't even believe that. Yeah. You know, I was, I was thinking that and then I'm just like, shit, I don't even need the lwl anymore.
Speaker 1 00:47:17 I'm just like, nobody's telling me on <laugh>. Yeah, exactly. Right. Geez. Well, I think that we've covered everything. Yeah. That was nice spiritually episode on spirituality. Yeah. I was just telling, um, Nads off of when we stopped recording for a moment, I was just telling her how much I really like the fact that like, like reminiscing on that reminiscing on my journey with like actually awakening to this stuff. Yeah. Yeah. Because I did transition away from it for a bit, as I was like doing multidimensional, living, helping people like be here. Yeah. Helping myself be here and I'm just like, oh wait, fuck. I had pretty cool experiences. Yeah. You realize. And then you're like, there was the time of your life. You, you had a ball back when you were. I was meditating every day. Oh my God. It just makes me wanna do it honestly.
Speaker 1 00:48:00 <laugh> you have to be here. I'm like have to still be here. But yeah, that's something I've been asked recently. Actually they are telling me to meditate. Yeah. They're like, you need to meditate. I'm tapping into something else at the moment. Something completely different. I have to tell you about it. Yeah. Cause now we're allowed to talk cause bad. We're allowed to talk. You'll tell me doll. No, it's really like, uh, like tapping into the quantum field on a whole new level. Yeah. Right. Okay. Keen to hear this one. Yeah. And then I'll keep you guys updated when I know what the fuck is going on. Yeah. <laugh> okay. All right. So thank you for listening. Yeah. And have a good rest of your day or night, whatever it is at the time of you listening to me. Yeah. And tell us, um, about any of your experiences, please.
Speaker 1 00:48:39 I love hearing this stuff. Honestly, let me know anything crazy. Anything that like triggered your spiritual awakenings? Let us know. We actually have a new, uh, Instagram page. Yeah. So that's where we feel like we wanna interact the most. Yeah. Yeah. I just think like, it's time, there's like so many of you now. So we were just like, you know what? Let's do an actual community online. So if you wanna connect to like-minded people, if you wanna, you know, follow up vibe, Instagram page, <laugh> also, I do want to announce on Friday. I am holding a, before you do that though. Well, I'll just tag the handle. It's called act consciously thriving podcast. We'll leave that linked in the description. Amazing. Um, this episode's coming out on Thursday, Australian Eastern standard time. Um, but on Friday I am running a, you know, this episode's gonna be out and you just get past <laugh> <laugh> what?
Speaker 1 00:49:37 But on Friday, um, 29th of July, this Friday, I am running a universal laws, Mar class. I'm gonna cover the law of vibration law of one law of cause and effect and law of attraction. You don't wanna miss out. It's gonna be able to help you and ease, uh, manifest with ease and become the master of your mindset and use these universal principles to your advantage when it comes to creating your dream life. So you don't wanna miss out it's on my Instagram at Nadia galley. Mm-hmm <affirmative> so be there or be swear. Yeah, she actually did like the fall version of this for the course. Um, for my course multidimensional living now I can't say it <laugh> I'm understood. So she did that and the girls love it. Like they they're still talking about it. I love the university. They were just like, oh my goodness. I had no fucking idea. Yeah. Cause people only know about the law of attraction. Yeah. They don't actually get like into it. Yeah. Yeah. So, yeah, but it'll be good. It'll be really, really good. So that's Friday live on Instagram. Yep. Awesome. Done. Done. Be be there'll be square. Okay. There'll be square. We'll see you next week. See ya. Bye. If you love today's episode, please do not forget.
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