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[00:00:08] Speaker A: Hello, and welcome back to the consciously thriving podcast. We spoke about me introducing, and then you tried to introduce again, didn't you? [00:00:15] Speaker B: No, no, no. Do you know what it is? Because I have a Gemini brain, I go to the next sentence. So, like, my brain is, like, getting. [00:00:22] Speaker A: Beat up before I've even said before. [00:00:23] Speaker B: That's how bad it is. If you're a Gemini, let me know if you can relate. [00:00:27] Speaker A: Honestly, being friends with everyone in my life is like a Gemini. Literally. [00:00:32] Speaker B: I secretly love it. [00:00:33] Speaker A: I obviously love it because everyone's a Gemini, but you guys are funny. I swear to God, the way that their brains operate blows my mind. [00:00:40] Speaker B: It blows my mind. [00:00:41] Speaker A: I can't tell her secrets. [00:00:42] Speaker B: Nah. [00:00:43] Speaker A: She'll literally spill the tea on absolutely everything. I'll be sitting there like, oh, my God, literally. So she's not allowed to know any secrets. [00:00:50] Speaker B: Dead sick. But you still tell me most of it. I do, because who am I gonna tell? [00:00:54] Speaker A: Who else am I gonna tell, though? [00:00:56] Speaker B: Anyway, what I was about to say was, it's been a minute. [00:01:01] Speaker A: It's been a hot minute. [00:01:03] Speaker B: Holy shit. [00:01:04] Speaker A: I cannot believe we're back here. [00:01:05] Speaker B: We're back here. [00:01:06] Speaker A: Shall you do the explaining as to why we are back here? [00:01:09] Speaker B: Yes. So, if you were a longtime follower, you would know that Sheila and I ran the consciously thriving podcast for about, like, a good year. It was a solid year, and about eight months ago, we decided. I can't remember the exact date, so bear with me. But about eight months ago, we did decide to. That the podcast wasn't aligned. And obviously, we've taken space over the last eight months and have decided that not only have we figured out the way that we want to do it, but we have decided that. Well, sorry, let me take a step back. This is the Gemini problem. We decided at that point that it wasn't aligned, but along the time, along the way of taking a bit of a break and making a decision to no longer do the podcast, we have found our way in which what we have found the true intentions of what we want this podcast to actually be like, which is a authentic platform, which we have deep conversations with you guys, and you guys can get the insights to the things that we're going through, the things that we're navigating, and it feels like more of a community base. But before, when we were doing the podcast in the past, we had a lot of limitation, and we were just trying to build something that felt like a little bit inauthentic. [00:02:33] Speaker A: Yeah, that was very much what we were doing. We were trying to copy other podcasts that we would consume. And we were very much in this, like, realm of just restriction. There were so many rules we placed on ourselves as to, like, how many episodes, how they're structured, what we're going to see. And it felt like all along we wanted it to be this, but we couldn't. It's like we didn't give ourselves the permission for it to be this because it was just, I know for me, I just had thoughts like, who's gonna give a fuck? Who's gonna care? Like, I'm like, it's not interesting. It's, you know, they're not learning anything. Why would they tune in? And I'm just like, holy shit, the woman I am today and, like, the entrepreneur that I've stepped into today is, like, completely different from that version of me. But it was like that version of me that just didn't allow myself to just do what I want to fucking do in the way that I want to do it and know that that is what works, that is what, like, literally, you know, builds community and just fulfills your desired intention in the end. It's like, sometimes it doesn't make sense, but it's just like, it does in the grand scheme of things. [00:03:39] Speaker B: It does, it does. And I think, like, for me, and I know you as well, it was like something that I was navigating at the time because we were still quite new to business, right? It felt like I wanted an outlet to do my teachings and everything that I'm here to teach as a teacher and as a mentor in this space. But then I also had this desire to, like, have a community and share my life with and, like, this is something we've even kind of desired before having a spiritual awakening. We always used to, like, look at friends having podcasts and where they just chit chat about their life and things like that and say that we want that and, oops, sorry. [00:04:17] Speaker A: Align everyone, that's my. [00:04:19] Speaker B: But I think at that time, like, I had two desires, which you would have had as well, but kind of meshing them together and using the podcast as a place for our teachings and things like that when it just wasn't that. [00:04:31] Speaker A: It wasn't meant to be that. And I think, yeah, we've always wanted to do this, but it just, it wasn't coming through until recently. We've been like, back and forth for the last, like eight months about, like, because we had decided not to do it. So if you have been a listener of the pod, the podcast for a while, you would know that we actually did this whole announcement, and we're like, it's dead. And I guess, like, that version of the podcast is dead. Cause now it's like closeted soul. Closeted soul. [00:04:58] Speaker B: Wow. Which was Shilay's podcast before she even did the consciously thriving. [00:05:02] Speaker A: That was the original podcast, but it's consciously thriving 2.0. Like, it feels like a different vibe, but, yeah, it's like we've been back and forth for the last couple of months about whether or not we're gonna do this again. I know I've, like, I started the conversation, I just kept going to Nadia, and I'm like, hey, do you want to do it again? And she would be like, literally, fuck off. Don't look at me. Don't talk to me. Shut the fuck up. [00:05:23] Speaker B: I just feel like we had tried so deeply at that time, but we. [00:05:26] Speaker A: Tried, we kept, like, before we decided to quit the podcast, these are the conversations we would have. Like, we would keep going back and forth between, are we gonna do it? Are we not gonna do it? [00:05:36] Speaker B: Yeah. [00:05:37] Speaker A: And it was just. [00:05:37] Speaker B: And we're here now. [00:05:39] Speaker A: We're here now. We're here now. And it feels good. It feels, like, so much more relaxed, and it feels, like finally fulfilling this desire. Desire and intention that I've had this download that we were supposed to do something like this, but in, like, this way since I was working at my job, which was fucking young. [00:05:59] Speaker B: Here we are. Yeah. Just don't know where life's gonna take you and the path that you're on. [00:06:02] Speaker A: You really don't. [00:06:03] Speaker B: But that is our intention. We just want this podcast to be safe community where you come along and you just hear the ins and outs of, like, what we're navigating, and you just gain what you need to gain through it. Just chit chat, just chitchat, chitchat some. [00:06:17] Speaker A: Shit, which is, like, honestly, what we're so good at. [00:06:19] Speaker B: We are so good at. Something I was gonna say as well is these recordings are also gonna be live on our instagram. [00:06:28] Speaker A: Yeah, Instagram and YouTube. So should you desire to actually tune in that way, you have those options. [00:06:34] Speaker B: Yeah. Yeah. So I thought I'd put in that little piece of information. [00:06:38] Speaker A: That was clever. Good job. [00:06:39] Speaker B: Good to let them know, like, what's going on. We've got a podcast. We've got YouTube. Like, whatever you desire and however you desire to consume content. [00:06:47] Speaker A: What's your favorite platform to consume things on a podcast? [00:06:50] Speaker B: Spotify or Apple. [00:06:52] Speaker A: Really? [00:06:52] Speaker B: Yeah. [00:06:53] Speaker A: Nice. I do like. Yeah. If I'm like, podcasting for sure. Those platforms. [00:06:58] Speaker B: I'm not a big Instagram Live girly. Like in terms of consuming it. Like, I feel like I've been having a desire to do more lives for my business, but I don't consume them a lot. [00:07:09] Speaker A: Do you consume in like one x? Like 1.5 XP? [00:07:12] Speaker B: Yeah. [00:07:12] Speaker A: You do that? [00:07:13] Speaker B: Yeah, you so would. [00:07:15] Speaker A: Like, what do you. What's your number like? It's a two point. [00:07:17] Speaker B: No, 1.51.5. Two's too far. Especially like when you're listening to people from all over the world. Yeah, the different accents. Different accents are hard to pick up. Yeah, I have that problem. [00:07:28] Speaker A: Yeah, but. Yeah, okay. Yeah, because that's why I used to be an Instagram Live girly. But you can't like one, like 1.5 exit now. So now I can't listen to people in a. [00:07:39] Speaker B: Do you know what I was gonna say? I have put you from like 1.5 speed on like WhatsApp to like one. [00:07:46] Speaker A: Yeah. [00:07:46] Speaker B: For example. And it's like, are you intentionally talking like a snail? [00:07:53] Speaker A: I think the same about you. I'm like, why is she literally a snail right now? [00:07:57] Speaker B: Yeah. So slow. [00:08:01] Speaker A: But it doesn't sound like that in person. [00:08:02] Speaker B: No, because I think the one is a little bit slower than what your normal speed would be. [00:08:06] Speaker A: Do you reckon? [00:08:07] Speaker B: I don't know, but it has to be because it's not. [00:08:10] Speaker A: You decided the speed in person. [00:08:12] Speaker B: Yeah, but that's true. That's true. But you talk so fast. [00:08:15] Speaker A: Sometimes I put you on like 1.5 and I don't understand, I have to play it back like twelve times and I'm just like, surely just put it on one. [00:08:23] Speaker B: That's something that I have to be mindful of doing the podcast because I do speak very quickly. You do speak. It's my brain. [00:08:29] Speaker A: But babe, that's you. [00:08:31] Speaker B: Yeah, but sometimes I can jump the gun. Like you saw the words almost coming out of my mouth before you finished your sentence. [00:08:36] Speaker A: It's really funny. Like, I'll be watching you when we do these things and then you're like talking. I was like, she's just missed out on like five words. But I feel like people like receive it anyway. Like, you know what I mean? [00:08:45] Speaker B: Yeah. [00:08:46] Speaker A: Like when you're talking, I'm like, I get what she means. Like, I know what she's talking about. [00:08:49] Speaker B: Yeah. Wow. Anyway, that's a life update. [00:08:52] Speaker A: What have you been up to? [00:08:53] Speaker B: Wait, hold on 1 second. [00:08:54] Speaker A: No. [00:08:55] Speaker B: So the intentions of today's podcast, we wanted to go like just be raw and deep with you on, you know, things that have been going on in our world and the things that we're navigating. But before we do that, we should go into a bit of a life update, like, see what we've been got, what's been going on for the last eight months. So I'll start with me or. [00:09:13] Speaker A: Yeah, I feel like you've had the most, like, exciting changes. [00:09:16] Speaker B: I've had some big changes over, I'd say, the last couple months. So I got engaged very, to my partner. [00:09:22] Speaker A: I feel like we need to do, like, a congratulations. [00:09:24] Speaker B: Yeah. So I got engaged to my partner, Anthony, in Europe, which was another manifestation that I was, like, working. Well, I wasn't even working towards it. It was just a desire that I had for, like, the last, I'd say, two years. [00:09:39] Speaker A: I feel like Europe was her desire not getting engaged. [00:09:43] Speaker B: No. Yeah, Europe, because you go to Europe was, like a big desire. Because I hadn't actually been to Europe with Anthony. I've been separate to him, and it was his first time going. So it was just something that we. [00:09:53] Speaker A: It was a big manifestation. You were working on it for ages. [00:09:55] Speaker B: Yeah. Because I feel like what happened was, like, we. Well, I had quit my job and I went, like, all in with the business, and I feel like, for so long, especially, like, the first year, I was investing so much money into, like, mentorship and things like that. And I was still did some travel, but it was just, you know, when you, like, from Australia to Europe, it's like a big. You don't go for, like, a week. Like, you go for a while. We went for five weeks, and that's still not, like, a lot. Like, that's still not a huge amount of time. So it feels like, you know, between his work and everything like that, like, yeah, there was just a bit of planning. You need to, like, plan for it, so, yeah, like, the first year, I invested so much into my business and things like that, whereas then this desire to, like, go away with him on a big holiday, like. Like, that was coming up. So we were. Yeah, we're just working towards it, but we were, like, going through so many, like, different changes and then, yeah, all of a sudden we. We booked it and I'm engaged. [00:10:52] Speaker A: It's crazy, but, yeah, yeah, literally. So she also. You guys booked it when Anthony just got, like. Like, he had to leave his job. [00:11:01] Speaker B: Yeah, yeah. [00:11:02] Speaker A: So then he was, like, having a complete, like, financial change as well. Like, you know what I mean? [00:11:07] Speaker B: Yeah. So. So what happened was, and I'll give, like, a story, which I'm sure, like, at some point in this podcast, whether it's like this episode or whatever, wherever it leads to, we'll go into the depths of, like, that being something that I've. We've had to navigate. [00:11:21] Speaker A: Yeah. Because I feel like that was massive. [00:11:23] Speaker B: It was, yeah. So. Oh, my God. Should we just start there? Like, should we start with that? [00:11:30] Speaker A: Yeah, start there. [00:11:31] Speaker B: So basically, this was like a really uncomfortable period of time in my life where Europe was something we were manifesting for a while. And we. It was like last year we had made the decision to go, but, like, obviously summer is once a year, so we have to wait for, like, the whole next year to go away. And that was the plan. And then basically in January this year, we decided to book the tickets. We decided to go. And Anthony was. Anthony, just to give you background, has been working as, like, a building. I'm just gonna say architect for like, as a. Yeah, as a broad statement. But like, he's an architect, so he designs houses and things like that. He was working for a really, really good company. But over our summer break, which for Australia is like December, January, just because it gets confusing. December, January and Febden, that's our summer holidays. Over the break, we decided to book it. Right. And he felt like his work was going to be okay with it because his work, and I'm going to be mindful of how much I share, just whatever, because of the company and things like that. But usually they let people go on a big holiday, so it's never been an issue. But this year they were cracking down because they were just trying to be more mindful of how many people were going on leave and things like that. So basically, Anthony had let his work know that we. So we booked the tickets, and Anthony was going back to work in February. We booked him in January. He was going back in February. So he's put in his request. And unfortunately it got, well, not unfortunately now, but at the time it got rejected, which meant we either don't go on the holiday, which we had been working towards, especially Anthony. Cause he had never been before. Like, this was a really big trip and he's got like, an italian background, so, like, he wanted to go, like, see some family, and it was just like a big deal for him. And they had said no. And when I say, like, when that happened, how. So the decision was like, no, you can't. You either go for three weeks or which we were planning to go. It was actually five and a half weeks we went for, or we go for five weeks. But we couldn't go for the full five weeks. He could only go for three weeks. So there was no way we were going all the way to Europe for three weeks. [00:13:50] Speaker A: Wait, so they gave you an option from five weeks? [00:13:53] Speaker B: He had enough leave. [00:13:54] Speaker A: Yeah. [00:13:54] Speaker B: They didn't. They didn't want him to take any unpaid leave. Yeah, he had three weeks worth of leave to do. So the other two weeks. Two and a half weeks, they weren't approving. [00:14:04] Speaker A: Okay. [00:14:04] Speaker B: Not even a. You're not gonna get paid. It was. They just weren't approving and you're not allowed to go because we need you, basically. [00:14:10] Speaker A: Yeah. [00:14:11] Speaker B: So it was either we, I don't know, re redo the tickets and go for three weeks, which was never gonna be an option, or you leave. Well, he left his stable income and just to give people background, like, Anthony was taking on jobs. Let me. [00:14:28] Speaker A: So he had his own, like, business on the side that he was working on. And he's always dreamed of being, like, an entrepreneur and starting his business, but Nadia ended up doing it first. [00:14:39] Speaker B: Yes. So Anthony's always wanted to do his own business, but this story is going back and forth, but we're just gonna roll with it. This is just how we are. So basically, Anthony's always had this desire to be. Be his own boss. But, like, with his industry and things like that, he really needed to get the experience under his belt. And there's, like, a few legal things, like, you need to be registered and things like that. And then to even be registered in Australia, you need to have a certain amount of experience and qualification. Like, there's just a bit to go into it. So it wasn't as simple as, like, just dropping the ball and doing it. Like, he actually had to work towards being able to create his own business or be his. Be his own boss. So basically with that, like, when I quit my job, he was in his, I guess, quote unquote stable, full time job. And I've just, like, lost this so much to this story. But, like, he was in his normal stable, full time job, and the plan was that he would leave when he was ready, and we didn't know when he was going to be ready. So he was working towards this idea that when we got back from Europe, he would potentially go back to part time. He would go part time there, but the universe had other plans. So this guy has been pushed out and just to give everyone background, Anthony, because between he's doing his full time job and between the side jobs that he was working on, has been our higher source of income. And we have a mortgage. We have, like, every other person on this planet had bills to, to pay. So when we were put into this position of Anthony having to go do this, we had to sit down and make a decision. Like, does he go get something else or does he go all in with his business even though he doesn't have any evidence right now that this is going to be like, he was getting jobs here and there, which, you know, a few thousand dollars but not enough. Like, not, not regularly and not enough. Like, if honestly, like, thinking back to January, it didn't make sense. It still didn't make sense, like, get. [00:16:52] Speaker A: Like, to be to say that. And I swear to God, not once did I think that it didn't make sense. [00:16:58] Speaker B: It, like, to us, it didn't make sense. But on piece of paper, how frequent and how often he was getting a job, it didn't make sense. Like, from a logic. [00:17:06] Speaker A: Yeah. For me, it was all energetic and I remember you telling me, I remember just feeling like it was going to be okay and it was going to be, like, better than okay. I just remember getting that feeling. I had, like, no worries at all. Energetically, I was like, I could feel it. And I sometimes feel this with, like, entrepreneurs. Like, yeah, I can feel when they, like, it's like this, so much sitting there that wants to come through, but it can't. But it can't because you're, I see this a lot with people that hold on to, like, full time work and, like, the answer isn't always to fucking leave your job because that's like a big step. But, like, for this has happened a couple of times where, like, with entrepreneurs, I can feel like it's like so much wants to come through, but they're holding on to a job and the job is energetically capping the amount that they were letting through. It's like they can't let the stuff come through because they're holding onto the job so their cup is so full with the job that it's not coming through in the business. And it just felt like, like once he, like, that was, like, gone and he had let go. I just felt it. It was like a waterfall. I felt like there's so much was gonna come through in the business. Like it had been waiting. It had been wanting to manifest. [00:18:12] Speaker B: Yeah. [00:18:13] Speaker A: So it just felt like that. [00:18:14] Speaker B: Yeah. And I think, like, it's so true because what was happening with Anthony was like, he's working full time and almost at this point, point where, like, a job would come up, but it's almost like I don't have time, so I have to say no to the job because he was scared. Like, he was scared to let go and, like, fully trust that this was gonna work. [00:18:30] Speaker A: Yeah. [00:18:30] Speaker B: So just rewind back to, like, the company saying no. We had to actually sit down and go, like, what the fuck are we going to do? Like, what do, what do you want to do? Right? And I swear when we had that conversation, it wasn't even him going to get another job. Full time job in that field was not going to happen. Like, he was not, there was no part. I didn't even want that for him. I didn't want him to do that. And then the other option was like, do we get, does he get something part time and, like, just trust for this period or whatever? And then we kind of just made this decision, like, and this wasn't an easy decision and I'll go into the emotions that have come up from it, but we made the together because we're a couple. We had just kind of said, he's going to go all in with his business. And it's like, it wasn't even, like, let's not plan for the, like, in a few months time, do you need to go get a job? Let's stop. Stop doing that, right? Because I spent a lot of time in that energy of always planning for a plan B. And it was really, like, I felt like all the, and I'm saying this in a positive light before I go into, like, how I felt, but I felt like all the work I had put into trusting life and the universe and just trusting this journey, trusting the unknown, came all up and it was as simple as, like, this is what he's gonna do. Like, I'm over, like, planning for a plan B. It's not what he wanted. It's not what he wants. He's a creator for his reality. We're gonna make this work. Right? So that was the final decision we made. So, Anthony, it was when we got back, he would go all in with his business. Now, to be really truthful with you, this happened around January, February, and it was a really, like, whilst, like, I feel like we're, like, at a really nice stage with it now, but that was a really uncomfortable situation to happen. And the strongest emotion that was coming up for me, Washington anger, because I had worked the last year and a bit working on my safety with money, working on believing in the unknown, working on all of that, and I finally was at this place where I mastered it for myself. And then what felt like my safety blanket, what felt like the last bit of certainty, I had got ripped out from underneath me, and I had no control over it. Like, who was I to tell him what to do next? Who. Who was I tell to tell him what he couldn't and couldn't do? And I was. The strongest emotion coming up was fucking frustration. I was pissed off at the universe, and, like, I don't even think I vocalized to you how pissed off I was. And that, like, when I look back at that moment, that was the dominant vibration. It was like, I'm sick of this. [00:21:01] Speaker A: Yeah. [00:21:02] Speaker B: And I went through a period of actually just feeling like, I just want to give all of this up. [00:21:06] Speaker A: Yeah. It's because it's like when we made the decisions to leave our job and go all in on living an intuitively led life, it was like the whole journey has been surrender and trust. And it feels like every single time you, like, you overcome one thing, and then it feels like you're slapped in the face with something else and you're just like. Sometimes it just got to that point where you're just like, I want to punch something in the face. [00:21:30] Speaker B: I just got to this place where I was like, I have mastered uncertainty within myself. I can hold. Like, I had mastered, honestly, like, I felt like I had mastered the energetics. [00:21:39] Speaker A: And when it was just showing you where you still had. Yeah, it was. [00:21:42] Speaker B: Life was showing me, like, where I hadn't. Like, where. How much do you actually trust? Like, how much do you really trust that everything's going to be okay? And there were two. Like, so I went through a lot of surrender and healing with that, and it was fucking rough. Like, guys. Like, it was actually rough. Like, yeah, it was. [00:21:59] Speaker A: It would have been. [00:22:00] Speaker B: I was just so. I think for a solid week, I was pissed off. Like, I was pissed off. I was just like, I'm done with this journey. Like, I'm sick of it just didn't even feel like things aren't going to be okay. It felt like I'm sick of being in uncertainty. I'm sick of holding myself in uncertainty. And I just prefer stability. Like, I prefer to know, just have more stability. Right. And then I obviously worked through my processes, and they're always stuff that I like, the tools that I lean on, and I just, for the first time in a long time, I just made the decision that through all of this, that I'm going to learn to be okay. I'm going to have to detach from what I think as consistent money, I'm going to have to detach from what I believe. And that's what this journey was illuminating to me. Like, what, what was happening was my beliefs around consistency, certainty, where I was putting any power to a job, where I was putting any power to what is happening right now in this moment where I was putting power to, I guess, like, what I saw as stable was being highlighted. And I've had to really learn and deeply embody, not just learn, but deeply embody what it actually means to understand that you're the source of your own income. [00:23:20] Speaker A: Yeah. You really have. [00:23:22] Speaker B: Yeah, that's what. And I've seen it. And I've seen it. [00:23:24] Speaker A: Yeah. And it's like, it's. You had to learn what it actually meant to feel safety and security within yourself. That's the. [00:23:34] Speaker B: And that everything. [00:23:35] Speaker A: That's your source. Yeah, that's where it comes from. [00:23:38] Speaker B: That's from, yeah, 100%. It was like this internal safety, and that was, like, so deeply illuminated, and I was just like, fucking hell. I'm so, like, at that time, I was like, I'm so over this journey. But we've done the work. Like, we've had to, like, surrender to the depths. Even Anthony, like, had to surrender. He's been more than ever, like, an exciting chapter because, you know, I often think, like, when you first start your entrepreneurial journey and this isn't to, like, downgrade, like, not saying that anything bad will ever, like, is going to happen to him or anything, but, like, you go in blindly, and he was just like, so he was just in that new, fresh energy. Right? And sometimes when you've been in the journey for a little while and you've had the failures, you've had the successes or whatever, there's a different energy that goes into not being the newbie in business or being in the newbie in this world anymore. [00:24:24] Speaker A: I literally wrote a post about this the other day about, like, just going into business from this, like, naive possibility. Because I remember when I first went into, like, doing this full time, like, this is amazing. Even just like, not even just like, entrepreneurship, just like spirituality. I was just, like, possibility, endless possibility. I was just, like, in this, like, thriving energy. But then, like, you go on the journey, and this journey is not for the faint of heart. It really isn't. Like, and I don't say that to be limiting or anything like that, but this is a journey where you have to fucking see your shit. Like, all the areas in which you give your power away, all the areas in which you're holding back on your truth and things like that. Like, if you're actually committing to living an intuitively led life like, you, you have to do the shadow work that comes with it. And, like, I didn't know that taking this path was going to be me literally facing some of the hardest truths I've ever had to face in my entire fucking life. I've had to do growth that I didn't even know was. I'm gonna cry. [00:25:27] Speaker B: Like, thinking about it, it's like, honestly. [00:25:30] Speaker A: It'S been a fucking, like, wild ride. [00:25:33] Speaker B: Yeah, it's been a wild. [00:25:34] Speaker A: Literally. [00:25:36] Speaker B: She likes crying. I'm crying. [00:25:38] Speaker A: But it's been, like, I love it. I've been, like. I've grown into the person that I never thought that I would be. I've done things that I never thought. [00:25:48] Speaker B: That I could do. [00:25:50] Speaker A: I've pushed myself in ways that, like, still inspire me. [00:25:54] Speaker B: Like, to the point where I'm like. [00:25:55] Speaker A: Wow, I'm so fucking inspiring. Yeah, but it's been fucking intense. [00:26:02] Speaker B: It's intense to be, like, up against. [00:26:04] Speaker A: Your shit and to be navigating your own shit and to, like, break beyond your limitations and things like that. [00:26:10] Speaker B: It's really. Can be really uncomfortable. [00:26:12] Speaker A: It's everything all at once. It's like, it's, like, it's fucking expansive. And it's, like, the hardest shit you'll do in your life. But it's, like, the best shit. [00:26:20] Speaker B: Yeah, it's, like, the best shit. And, like, how you're feeling right now, like, with the tears and things like that. Maybe not the emotion, but, like, that bottled up energy. And, like, that's where it got to this point when, like, Anthony, we were doing that. Like, he was really excited. He was all that. But I was going through the, like, I'm exhausted from. I'm exhausted from holding myself and, like, I had to move through that. [00:26:42] Speaker A: That exhausted feeling comes from resistance. Yeah, like, when you're resisting how you're feeling. Yeah. [00:26:48] Speaker B: And I was just feeling so exhausted because I was. I was. For a couple weeks, I was resisting that. I was actually feeling uncomfortable, and it was, like, more in frustration, and it was like I even had to, like, to be honest, hire a somatic coach to help me process my emotions around this. Because it went, like, really deep. Yeah, because it was like, all this stuff came up to the surface when, like, he made that decision, because it was like, I. It was like, you know when you're, like, pushing yourself and let me know if you can relate, like, you're. You're doing the thing. You're doing the thing. You're doing the thing. But there's a part of you that's not acknowledging that. Like, there is a little version of you that's a little bit uncomfortable with how fast you've been moving. And it's not that you moving in that it's like quantum leaping is never the problem. Like, you. You can actually quantum leap and it not be this big. Fuck off, big thing. Right. You can go from being this version of yourself to this crazy version of your dream life, and it doesn't have to be this big thing, but when you don't actually knowledge and bring your body with you during that period of time, it will catch up with you and it catches up usually in the form of anxiety. [00:27:49] Speaker A: Yeah, I very much relate to that. I feel like there was a big part of my journey, particularly at the start, where that's how I was moving. Like, it was like. But I still find myself getting lost in that sometimes. Sometimes it's like this little thing in the background and it's so fucking minute. It's so small. It's a little voice that's like, hey, I'm uncomfortable. Hey, I need attention. But it's so. It can be so easy to miss. [00:28:09] Speaker B: Yeah. [00:28:10] Speaker A: And it can be also, like, not even. You know, what I realized happened to us as well. We got, like, we do this work. We fucking take clients through this work. We do it ourselves. We constantly, you know, we have, like, friends in this space. We're always talking about this shit. [00:28:22] Speaker B: Yeah. [00:28:23] Speaker A: It got to the point where it's like you became so over your own shit that you even would ignore yourself. [00:28:28] Speaker B: Yeah. [00:28:29] Speaker A: That's what would happen. It was just like, I'm so fucking sick of the story. Shut the fuck up. [00:28:33] Speaker B: Yeah. [00:28:33] Speaker A: Do you know what I mean? [00:28:34] Speaker B: Yeah. [00:28:34] Speaker A: So then you would, like, we would just kind of, like, treat ourselves like that. Yeah. [00:28:39] Speaker B: And being like, I find, like being so sick of the story really does come from this place of. You've been ignoring, like, what's actually the feeling. The feeling? Yeah. You've been ignoring the feeling. [00:28:51] Speaker A: Those feelings don't come up when you actually are addressing that part of you that's nagging at you and I, you actually see that version of you and you give it space to be seen, to be heard, and to be expressed like that. Like, being able to meet myself in that way and do the somatic work like, this has actually transformed how I move now. [00:29:16] Speaker B: Yeah. [00:29:17] Speaker A: Because I feel like I move with a lot less, like, resistance. And when I, like, actually get, like, one of my recent, like, income up levels was like, in April. Like, it was a really big month for me. April. Yeah, April. [00:29:31] Speaker B: April, may. I can't remember. Yeah, whatever. [00:29:35] Speaker A: It was, like, around there, but I remember that. And I remember, like, the growth that came in, it just felt like, so, like, I felt, like, calm. Like, I felt, like, chill. [00:29:44] Speaker B: Yeah. [00:29:44] Speaker A: You know what I mean? [00:29:45] Speaker B: Yeah. [00:29:45] Speaker A: Like, I felt. I didn't feel like I was like, I need to hold on to. Yeah. [00:29:48] Speaker B: You've done so much work around not being scared of your own, the creation. [00:29:52] Speaker A: Yeah. Because it's like, I haven't been, like, fighting myself. I haven't, like, I. I haven't been, like, walking in resistance. It's just been like, it's like I've. I'm meeting that emotional side of me and I'm like, hey, what's going on? And I feel like that's what we've really, like, been mastering this year. [00:30:06] Speaker B: Honestly, that has been a big thing. And I actually look back at. And I'm gonna make a post on it tonight, actually. But, like, I think back to, like, the start of the year, which was in January. So, like, a good six months ago, I realized that there was a part of me that wasn't walking with the full discomfort. So what I mean by that is, like, whenever I was met with resistance, it's almost like the underlying belief is I can't receive or I can't keep moving until this feeling is gone. [00:30:32] Speaker A: Yeah. [00:30:33] Speaker B: So the biggest thing through this journey this year has really been, like, being able to hold all emotions whilst being able to be open to receiving, whilst being able to still show up in my business while still being able to move, move through life through discomfort. Right. Because, like, that's where you stop resisting. [00:30:51] Speaker A: Yeah. [00:30:52] Speaker B: Usually I find when, like, so, to give you an example, like, I'm uncomfortable that I'm having to navigate uncertainty. I don't know what's going to happen between, like, at the moment. Like, I'm thinking back to me in January, I don't know what June is going to look like, I don't know what July is going to look like, but can I be open? Can I still move? Can I still keep doing what I need to do and stop responding to this current moment and keep moving? And I find that. That mindset where you don't hold all these beliefs to capping your receipts and stuff like that, that is how you stop avoiding. That's how you don't. You no longer live in resistance because you're actually honoring the discomfort. [00:31:26] Speaker A: Yeah. [00:31:27] Speaker B: And that's how you build evidence. Like, this is like how you manifest, because you build evidence that you can receive, you can do these things, and you're no longer trapped in an emotion. You're no longer being captivated by an emotion that's trying to control you because you're, like, walking with it but not responding to it. [00:31:45] Speaker A: Yeah. I literally love that you said that because that's actually the biggest, like, I think this year as well. It's like, I have realized that. [00:31:55] Speaker B: Sorry, I'm speaking. [00:31:56] Speaker A: No, because what we used to do was like, I remember I used to be like you. It's like, I can't have a negative fucking thought or feeling about this. Otherwise it means this is what I'm gonna call into my life. [00:32:07] Speaker B: Right. [00:32:08] Speaker A: And it's like realizing that, no, like, at every level, no matter where you fucking are on your entrepreneurial journey in fucking life, you're going to have negative thoughts come up, you're going to have doubt. You're going to have fear. If you're living an intuitively loved life where you're constantly pushing yourself, you're going to be uncomfortable. Constantly. There's always an up level period, and without that, you're not growing. So it's like every single time you're feeling discomfort, for you to be like, holy fucking shit. This means that I'm going to go backwards and I'm not doing it right. Shitting on yourself every time you have those feelings. It's like, it makes sense why you get stuck in, like, holding patterns and you can't grow beyond that because you just stay there. Do you know what I mean? [00:32:53] Speaker B: Yeah. [00:32:54] Speaker A: And I was very much like that as well. So, like, I was doing that same shit. And I feel like this year particularly, I was able to be like, wait, holy shit. No. It's like, I can feel scared. I can feel fear. I can even have a limiting fucking belief, and I cannot make it mean the world is falling down. My life is gonna blow up. My business is gonna blow up. It's like, no, yeah. So it's like all of my up levels have been like that. [00:33:17] Speaker B: Yeah, 100%. [00:33:18] Speaker A: Like, it's like I've been. It's like, yeah. It's like I've had, like, active resistance and doubt and, like, moments where I'm like, oh, this isn't gonna work. And it's like, yeah, it's as you said, it's like, can I feel that without attaching meaning to it? Can I see that? So I'm not actively resisting it. And finding myself. But then it's like, once you see that, it's like, but I'm still in this and I still doing this and I'm holding this and I'm open and I'm open. [00:33:41] Speaker B: I'm open to this moment. I'm open to the desires I have. I'm open to all of it. [00:33:46] Speaker A: Yeah, it's like, I'm open to the universe. [00:33:47] Speaker B: Like, moving. Like, that's the thing. Like, and I think that that's like where we. I've gotten caught up and just in general, like, thinking that, like, just being in the belief and mindset that are things working or is it, is it working? Is my manifestations working? Are they not? And it's like, get out of that mindset because it's always fucking working. So long as you're open to it, literally, like, you will always get met with where. And I often find, like, something I'm even noticing and have kind of like, realized. A master is like, there's like two energies, and this is like a bit random. I don't know why I'm bringing this up. I have no idea. But, like, if you are, like, in the realms of, like, shadow work and personal development, there's like, usually two things. Like, sometimes it's a belief you need to look at and sometimes, which is all comes down to believe, but then you have, like, really strong resistance. So sometimes it's like something that's, like, blocking you not, I don't like to use the word block, but, like, the reason why things aren't manifesting is because you have beliefs that are not in congruence with what you are trying to hold. But then sometimes it's not even that. It's that you are, you have a separate belief around, like, you can't receive because you have this thought or blah, blah, blah, and that's it. Separate, like, form of resistance. And I don't know why I'm bringing this up again, but it's like, just be mindful of where is it a belief that you, like, I just don't believe that this is going to happen. Versus, like, I'm feeling this way. I'm feeling this way because I, and because of that I can't receive because a long time, for a long time. [00:35:16] Speaker A: I was in important distinction. [00:35:18] Speaker B: Yeah, they're really two different things because so many people get caught up in changing their beliefs and fixing their beliefs, but sometimes it's like you don't actually have any more belief work to work on. You just need to see where you are. It's still belief. It's like belief in a different way, but it's like, where do you believe that you have more work to do? Like, where do you believe that, like, you can't receive right now? Because that's been a big part for me. I'm like, I create these stories as to why I can't receive right now. And it's like you end up going down the route of, like, looking at what are my money beliefs and things like that. It's like, actually, no, you're just not open in this moment, and there's nothing actually wrong. [00:35:50] Speaker A: We were actually having this conversation, and this morning, like, I was telling Nads, I'm like, I feel like this is integrated so much deeper for me because I'm like, wow. Like, I've been doing a lot of, like, mind work lately. Like, I've been doing a lot of nervous system work because my birthday kind of, like, rocked me off my socks. [00:36:08] Speaker B: Yeah, but I don't know if we. [00:36:09] Speaker A: Should just talk about that in another episode. [00:36:11] Speaker B: Yeah, maybe the next episode we can actually talk about Schultz's 28th birthday, my 28th birthday in more detail. [00:36:17] Speaker A: Yeah. Yeah, I so, like, with that, I've been going down this, doing a lot of, like, nervous system work. A lot of, like, coming back to, like, literally the work that I was doing at the start of my awakening. Just, like, getting a better mind, you know, just not being, like, so, like, active in my mind. So I've been taking a lot of steps, which I'll go into next episode, but through that, through observing my mind and just this, like, next iteration of me, I've realized how much I'm like, wow. Like, how addicted the mind is to thinking and how, like, in this, like, in the manifestation community, you're taught that, like, negative emotions and vibrations, like, impact your life so heavily. So, so many people are in active resistance to negative emotions and limitations that they attach to it and they build it. And I can see it now, and it, like, builds in, like, energy, and it gets bigger and bigger and bigger and it, like, takes over, and it ends up being this, this big ass thing that it actually doesn't need to be. It was never a thing, a belief you had to work on. Like you said, it was just like. [00:37:18] Speaker B: You'Re doing the wrong type of work. [00:37:19] Speaker A: You're doing the wrong work. Right. And then that's why you get stuck in, like, the cycles. And I just realized I've seen my mind trying to do it to me, and I'm just like, whoa, it's this next level of, like, what the fuck are you doing? [00:37:32] Speaker B: Stop it. [00:37:33] Speaker A: Like, that's not even a problem. You just, like, created something out of literally nothing. [00:37:37] Speaker B: Yeah, and like, I'm using this example again. Like, for example, like, I. At the start of the year, it was like I didn't need to do any more belief work around surrendering. I didn't need to do any more belief work around money or anything like that. Yeah. I just needed to be open to this moment. And, like, the more you realize that you are open to this moment. And what I mean by that is like, I'm just gonna keep moving and I'm going to just keep trusting and I'm just to keep, like, staying open to this moment. And even through resistance and stuff, that's where your beliefs actually get solidified. Because now being going through this journey over the last six months, my belief around, you know, money coming, like, that last part where I was attaching to a job or attaching to, like, what has been. Right, like, so what I mean by what has been is, like, Anthony getting a job, like every now and then to the blue, to having to, you know, he's getting them quite frequently now that I didn't. People would go more into the belief work instead of realizing that they just need to be open and just keep seeing that. And then through that, your beliefs just get solidified through the evidence. And now it's like, I'm at this point where I don't. [00:38:48] Speaker A: I don't see that you actively think about. [00:38:50] Speaker B: It's not something I actively think about or feed because. Yeah, and this is the difference, I think, between when I feel like that's. [00:38:57] Speaker A: Been the theme of the year. [00:38:58] Speaker B: Right. It's been for both of us. Yeah, both of us, actually. [00:39:01] Speaker A: Yeah. Because it's like, there were like, it's like different seasons of our life called for different things. And it was like belief work and opening up to this work and learning how money works energetically and how we work energetically and how our thoughts create things. And, like, it was all of that and now it's just been like. And now can you let go of that? Because I feel solidified. And can you just fucking, like, surrender and, like, just allow surrender so they allow life to be left? [00:39:23] Speaker B: Yeah. And if you're in that, like, ever in that boat where you're just like, I feel like I've been doing all the work and stuff, it's like, it's, it's. And this is with all love and with all. Because I've been here it's a lack of embodiment. And embodiment comes from, actually, the surrender. Embodiment comes from living and breathing your work, not meaning, like, if you're working on a belief, it doesn't mean it has to be 100% comfortable, but, like, working with that belief instead of being in resistance to it, you know? So it's like, that's the. That's where change is going to happen. And this is where people are, like, aren't getting what they want in this industry. They're not manifesting that the things that they desire, because they're not an embodiment, because they're still trying to fix it on a piece of paper. They're still trying to do that with. Instead of actually walking with the things that they want and desire. And that's a big thing. It's like their levels of being open to receive is capped. [00:40:17] Speaker A: Yeah. [00:40:17] Speaker B: Because of all of this work. So I feel like sometimes, like, the more you understand about your reality and how you create it, like, for me, for a period of time, it fucked me up. [00:40:27] Speaker A: Yeah, I think so. And I think, like, we were so. Well, we taught it so we, like, literally took everything so literally. Literally our level of consciousness as well. That's something I've realized as well. It's like, the level of consciousness in which you understand something is, like, based on where you are. And then sometimes, like, somebody saying something, but you're receiving in a completely different way. [00:40:46] Speaker B: Sorry, is that a sneeze? [00:40:47] Speaker A: Bless you. Yeah, I don't know. [00:40:49] Speaker B: It's so. [00:40:50] Speaker A: It's so interesting to see, like, sometimes I find myself going back to, like, old, like, things. Like, old, like podcasts I've listened to, and then I'm listening to it now with, like, this level of consciousness, and I'm like, whoa. Like, what I thought that person was saying was not what they were saying at all. And it's like just a different level of understanding. While to see how we, like, literally just consume things based on our own level of consciousness. I don't know why I start talking about that. [00:41:13] Speaker B: No, it's true. It's true. Like, I think that's, like, this is the vibe of the podcast. Like, we might. You might. Where the fuck is this conversation going? But it all makes sense. It all makes sense. I promise you it does. [00:41:23] Speaker A: Literally, I'm like, where have we gone? [00:41:25] Speaker B: It's just the deep thoughts and insights into our brains. [00:41:29] Speaker A: Literally, these are the conversations we have all the time. [00:41:32] Speaker B: Yeah, like, honestly. But yeah, like, if anything take from this episode, it is that like, walk through discomfort. Like, that's how you. Your life will start to transform. That's how you quantum leap. Like, that is the key to quantum leaping. [00:41:45] Speaker A: Yeah, I think it's just, like, not. Don't ignore the resistance, don't ignore the limiting beliefs, don't ignore the doubt, but also don't attach meaning to them. [00:41:53] Speaker B: Yeah. [00:41:54] Speaker A: Don't make them mean. Your life is over, your business is over. You're like, yeah, you might not. As Nadia said, you might not have a belief problem, like, in that. Like, you don't believe in the limiting, like, in the thing that you're getting the limiting belief about. It just might be that you've attached meaning to the negative frequency, and that's what keeps growing and controlling your life and keeping you in a cycle. [00:42:14] Speaker B: Yeah. [00:42:15] Speaker A: So it's just about, like, taking a step back and being like, holy shit. Like, where am I just creating problems out of literally nothing. [00:42:24] Speaker B: Yeah, 100%. And I feel like the work that we've really been doing this year is the deep. The depths of shadow work, specifically, which is obviously what we do with our clients and things like that. But I feel like it's solidified on a deeper level. [00:42:37] Speaker A: Oh, yeah, for sure. [00:42:39] Speaker B: I can. It feels like ego work, but, like, on ten times. [00:42:41] Speaker A: For fucking ten times deeper. Steroids. [00:42:45] Speaker B: Yeah. [00:42:45] Speaker A: That's actually something my clients always say. Like, they'll always come into my world, and they're like, holy shit. [00:42:50] Speaker B: Didn't know it was gonna be like this. [00:42:52] Speaker A: They were like, I was coming in here for business, baby. [00:42:54] Speaker B: Yeah, I was coming in here for a little bit of a. What do I. How do I do my content? [00:42:59] Speaker A: Yeah. [00:42:59] Speaker B: Like, oh, fuck, I didn't know that I had to actually feel my pain, literally. [00:43:05] Speaker A: It's actually so funny to receive that feedback. They're always like, fuck me. Like, I've grown so much as a person. And obviously, like, you know, they get the growth in the external senses as well, like, with them, because it all leads to that, like, the business and the income and all of the things. But it's like, in a way where you aren't fighting yourself and you are, like, doing it in a way where you're embodying more of your truth, more of who you are. And it's just. It's such a sexy place to do life from. [00:43:31] Speaker B: It actually is. It's like, the most. Yeah. You think freedom comes from the money and all of that. Like, they're. They're literally internal byproducts of. They're the external byproducts of your internal state. [00:43:41] Speaker A: That's why I was crying before, because I was like, this is like. It's like, taught me what true freedom actually is in life. Like, not like what it means. This path has shown me what it means to not give your power away, to fucking anything, and to be your own source completely, fully, in all senses. It's just. [00:43:58] Speaker B: Yeah, it's incredible. [00:43:59] Speaker A: It is. [00:44:00] Speaker B: Yeah. [00:44:00] Speaker A: May as well leave it there. [00:44:01] Speaker B: May as well leave it there. We got three outfits. [00:44:04] Speaker A: I know. Thanks for joining us again. That's it, right? Yeah. [00:44:09] Speaker B: I feel like we don't have. So basically, the flow of what we want to do is this is going to be so intuitively led. So, yeah, we'll definitely be advertising when the new episodes come out on our Instagram. So if you find us on YouTube or something, definitely hit us up on Instagram, because I feel like that's where the most updates of when the new episodes and stuff will come out. [00:44:32] Speaker A: Yeah, that's where we're most active. Definitely Instagram. So we'll have everything linked to in the description, you know, if you're on. If you're listening to this on a podcast, if you're on YouTube. [00:44:41] Speaker B: So, yeah, definitely. [00:44:43] Speaker A: Yeah. [00:44:43] Speaker B: Awesome. Thank you so much for tuning in. [00:44:46] Speaker A: Yeah. Thank you for tuning in. And we'll see you in the next one. See you in the next one. [00:44:49] Speaker B: Bye. If you love today's episode, please do not forget to rate and review in iTunes or Spotify. [00:44:56] Speaker A: If you would love to connect with us on a more intimate platform, you can find us both on Instagram. Instagram at Shuleozek and at Nadia Galley. We would love to connect with you. [00:45:07] Speaker B: Thanks for listening.